I recently saw the story of an x-playboy model who has been living homeless from her car. Her name is Louise Glover and she is on instagram, so is her story. She is a very brave and strong woman to ‘come out’ and ask for help.

Her story includes a no. She said No. No, she will not do only fans. She did not want to go that direction and she explains why. With her previous modeling, she was never one on one with clients or facing their comments at all. A few years ago, a model was only with the camera man, as long as they were able to stay safe. Only fans seems to be different.

I find her story very telling of how difficult it has become for people. She describes the stress of knowing one could be homeless and the migraines that can come.

The truth is we should be free to do things without being judged, but the reality is everyone is judging you.

Before I became unhoused and lost my support system, I was told by a guy ‘friend’ that I should do ‘only fans.’ This made no sense because I had a job, wasn’t famous, never been a model. Apparently, a lot of ‘girls’ were doing it. You never know what is happening behind the scenes. Only fans was not even in my radar. It didn’t make any sense, so why would this person suggest it? Fast forward a year and the truth came out for why he might suggest that.

You never know what is coming and need to be aware of how things will make you look. Think of all the consequences good and bad. The truth is we should be free to do things without being judged, but the reality is everyone is judging you. That will affect your job prospects, partners, players, gamers and traders. Think of all the reasons.

Immediately after hearing her story I found her on instagram to follow her. I want to see her successfully thriving in her dog walking business. I noticed that she had to cut off commenting from her post showcasing her on the news telling her story. She asked people to please stop essentially judging her and telling her to find God. It was pretty clear to me that she had already exhausted all of her options. I read through the comments and found them very creepy. It felt like pointing the finger and suggesting that only if she would ‘come to God’ that her life would get better. I have heard this line before.

I can’t speak for her but I found it not a coincidence at all that I was invited to come to Jesus after my life was ‘randomly’ and ‘synchronistically’ found lacking by a Series of Unfortunate Events. They all had a little breadcrumb trail by them.

Thing is, I never left Jesus. I have always thought a relationship with God should be a private one. I find it very unholy for people to be asking me about my relationship with God. That is between me and God. I find it suspicious when people are praising Jesus out loud. I’m happy for them but I personally think it is irreverent and sometimes looks like you are putting on a show. It reminds me of when people give money to charity and make it publicly known. Hey, I understand it, anyway you give is a gift anyway. With the way things are we need all the evidence of being good that we can get. I have considered getting on that band wagon too.

If I figured out your game, anyone can. ‘Hi, I want to fit in. Please don’t kill me. Praise the Lord. Save me Jesus.’

My heart goes out to the humble & homeless and to Louise Glover.

P.S. Je suis in French means ‘I am’, kind of sounds like the great I am. Only God can jugdge you, who is a higher power.