Real Loss is Losing All Love

A Dark Poem

I thought I could still win.

And you too, why not?

But in the aftermath

You caused a problem for me.

With Lies,

Gossip, & deceit.

Half truths that did not

include you.

& When they came

to make me pay.

For what? Who knows?

They did not say.

It was for blood.

It was about blood.

Not meant to see the light of day,

that’s when I learned

real heartbreak.

It’s not from one but all the love.

that we lose.

The one and only,

We are One Love.

At 17, 25,

and 3 years late,

to every life.

Three times the lights went out

and darkness stays

with me these days.

but I still dream.

I can’t get out.

I can’t succeed,

I cajole,

on my knees.

I scream,

I yell.

And your friends,

just laugh and tell.

I wake up.

in a sweat.

Tears stream down.

And wondering how,

to make it through.

The message comes,

across my screen.

& says #9

Can you live with this

for years?

Can you allow it,

If nothing changes…

I feel the words,

Vibration true.

I don’t like it

but day by day

Is how to renew.

And if that’s so,

Then I must feel.

I realized then.

And then is now still.

I am a mess,

Anyway, anyhow.

and my address:

Day 364, Panic Attack Ave.

So if this is it,

How it will be.

Then I can.

& we shall see.

& breathing still,

Is how I do.

The next one comes

At trigger 23.

I have now clue.

What tomorrow brings.

I hope the truth.

And this shall pass

and I think acceptance,

Just got me through.